Perception

How can I see the clouds when you wonder is it going to rain?

When do I let go and become what you are trying to give away?

I was flicking through a newspaper just as you did

But you saw hollow heads and dispersed red

I thought of a friend and a temporal past.

I held my hand like wounds on a soldier and yet you fought like a child in danger

Caught in a breath unprepared to release

A future need

To be laid before his feet.

Dreaming Daughter

I can close my eyes and she is no longer there
I can cover my ears and she is no longer there
I can still my mind and she is no longer there
Yes, I can do such things

But

I cannot close my heart for she is always there.

I can listen to a friend and she is no longer there
I can play a game and she is no longer there
I can argue and scream and she is no longer there

But

I cannot close my heart for she is always there.

I can plan and dream and she is no longer there
I can fall and hurt and she is no longer there
I can love another and she is no longer there

But

I cannot close my heart for she is always there.

The Lonely Tree

For a moment I was sure that others gathered here
  Time left its mark and silence grew in force
It was only the last sunset that called my name
  Time left its mark and silence grew in force
Still I stand and still I have no fear
  Time left its mark and silence grew in force
What future tightens its grip around the sane
Time left
Silence

16th March 2007 will soon become the 17th March 2007

My view now is not what it was then

Now I see lakes and islands; a misty glow of the sun upon ripples and leaves

Then it was twisted bodies and a ripping of souls (mainly mine)

Now in the distance three trees to my right

Then three ladies leaning heavy on my lost frame

Now hills mark the distance my eyes will allow me to see

Then my eyes no longer sacred, no longer clear

Now all is in perspective. Defined. Guided.

Then I felt sick and dragged where another led

Now I am empty even though the view is inspiring

Then I released my fullness out of view

Now, only now I awaken

Then I was asleep in my flesh

Now I am dis-jointed and tired

Then I could have searched until the morning

Now where do I go?

Then I did not care the way (only slight twitches of danger)

Now I want to swim in water breathable

Then I drowned for the thousandth time

Now I seek for the view to become me

Then I could not see

Now, only now can I hear you

Then I heard only rumours and all I ignored

Now my hands mean something. I desire a scan to erase. A hope to remain.

Lee Barnes

‘If not now, then when?’

Seasons

Seasons come and seasons go

While the endless kiss of life blows

A smile in the morning can bring the walls down

As enclosed within my heart lies a fruitful crown.

When you really look, do you see His majesty?

Flowing forever free within a sky shining bright. 

When you close the light.

When you hold your breath.

Does the darkness reveal His hand?

Does the stillness speak of His depth? 

My sweet season, how i watch you grow

As you change the way things were

Into something new.

My sacred season, how you teach me again

To fly as the eagle and see the vision

Of something new

Another special view of you. 

Seasons go and seasons come

Let your treasured rains fall within and fill my heart.

Is there anything as beautiful as now?
The next breath i take is a gift from heaven and when its gone You grant me another one.